Over the past week or so I have been getting lots of questions around how I am feeling and what is my energy like. I guess as much as it has taken me to have this news sink in it has taken all of you some time to wrap your heads around this as well... so here goes.
For the past couple of weeks I have noticed my energy coming back to a more normal level and am finding that I can do more before I get tired and need a rest. Heck I haven't even had a nap in over a week now and I don't think I have been very grouchy (for me anyway), our good friend was over on Saturday helping in the yard and he asked me a great question, "on a 1-10 how are you energy wise? if 10 were before any symptoms." I told him I was at a nine this week and an 8 last week. Kind of like rate the meeting... (work joke sorry). On Sunday I bumped into another good friend while cheering the participants at the local tri, he had not heard about my lymphoma and was wondering why I was not in the event. Well when I told him I thought he would fall down; I began letting him know how I was currently feeling and summed it up like this "if I didn't know, I wouldn't know" meaning that as far as how I am feeling now I don't feel sick at all.
I am not sure if this is because the lymphoma is retreating? Is it because I am finally fully recovered from the biopsy surgery? Have I just had enough time to have the thought of having cancer sink in and now I am truly fighting it? it could be because the weather has finally broken in to something resembling nice or perhaps it is all of the support from friends, family and co-workers? Truth is I don't really care why, I am just happy to report that I am feeling almost normal!
No but really how am I feeling? That is a standard question and how I read it is how are you dealing with this? Well again I am really pretty good about the whole thing as is Lori, we have had plenty of time to think about it and to talk about it and bottom line is it is what it is. There is nothing I / we could have done to prevent this and nothing I did to cause it so it is here and we (all of us) need to deal with it and show it whose the boss.
I tell folks all the time that I have a lot of things on my side and it is these reminders that keep me strong;
I am young! average age of diagnosis is 62
I am fit!
I am healthy!
I live in Victoria, best treatment centre around!
I have a great doctor, very knowledgeable and very involved.
I have a great wife!!! Very caring and supportive.
I have great friends! also very caring and supportive.
I have fantastic co-workers and work at a great place.
I have stage 1 with no b symptoms!
I think I am well positioned to beat this thing.
OH, almost forgot I do still have a sense of humour and that is a big chunk of it too.
So how am I feeling?
If I didn't know I wouldn't know, except for all of the support and love coming from you!
Thank you
Hey Don!
ReplyDeleteThanks for doing this blog, and keeping us up to date on your condition. Sounds like everything is going in the right direction to your complete recovery! Our thoughts are with you two as you battle this thing with grace and love for each other. Call us if there is anything we can do. We know you have lots of willing helpers, but if you are in a bind, please don't hesitate! xox Sue and Ken